Tuesday, April 17, 2012
Outside the box.
Silly picture to pick for that title, I know. Karma is still enjoying my birthday present bag from Ruby. But being in the bag is still being outside the box.
I always felt I lived outside the box...but with the door left open, I guess. I followed my own personal set of rules. Lived on the fringes...the edges...but could blend in anywhere I needed to. Remained true enough to myself that other people knew I followed my own path and wasn't like everybody else, but genuinely loved people enough that they accepted me as I was. At least that is how I see it. Hard to know what other people think. And I didn't spend much time worrying about that, to be honest. I think I was born with one foot on my own personal spiritual quest and that was my top priority. My successes and failures are my own.
Recently I watched two different documentaries that were eerily similar on how two different creative men coped with their own personal traumas, anger, and their need for comfort and safety. Each of them created their own unique little worlds. Talk about living outside the box. To the point where they lived inside their own created-world box. Mark is still alive, but they didn't discover Henry's world until after he died.
After a terrible beating left Mark Hogancamp brain damaged, he began creating models of a fictional town, Marwencol, to process the trauma. Jeff Malmberg's documentary explains how Hogancamp uses the elaborate dioramas as stand-ins for real life.
Featuring the voices of Dakota Fanning and Larry Pine and the work of talented animators, this documentary tells the story of Henry Darger, a reclusive janitor by day with few--if any--friends, but by night a literary artist with a unique vision. Darger's resulting 15,000 page epic is a wonderland of imagination as it deals with the exploits of seven angelic sisters who lead a rebellion against men who enslave children.
You can click on the titles and watch trailers.
Human beings are the most amazing, adaptable species.
If we absolutely cannot function inside the box any longer...
we are capable of creating a whole other box.
We will do anything needed to find comfort, safety, and companionship.
We want to belong somewhere.
We try to make sense of a world that can be ugly, painful, and unjust.
But there's that part of us that can soar and triumph over all that darkness.
I would imagine that both these documentaries could be a bit disturbing to a lot of people.
They touched me deeply.
Left a mark on my heart.
"Today you are You, that is truer than true. There is no one alive who is Youer than You."
"Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind."
Dr. Seuss quotes