Tuesday, June 19, 2012
Lots of sky pics today.
Seems like lately our days either start out with this (with or without rain)...
...and end up with this sometime during the day...
...or we start out with the blue skies and puffy clouds...
...and watch the sky darken and cloud over (with or without rain) sometime during the day.
It's been warm and the air is thick. Karma went out one day when the carpeting was fairly dry by the door...
...and looked everywhere...
...for moths. No luck. ;)
Meanwhile, I have been struggling over the mixed media page spread for a couple days. I know I could add more but I am done.
This has been alternately fun and stressful for me.
I have definitely gotten a foot in the water, I think.
You don't know how difficult it is for me to "scribble".
To not care that my repetitious doodles are not as uniform as I can possibly manage to make them. (Which I can't accomplish, anyways...but I try.)
To not care what anything looks like...or even if any of it even goes together...
The only way I could accomplish this at all was to draw or write really fast. Much faster than I normally would when I was making my usual unreachable bid for perfection. It was a bit exhilarating in its freedom...but also made me feel like I was losing my balance. (I'm afraid of heights--like vertigo, kind of.)
I know it may sound silly to somebody else, but I've even had bad dreams the past two nights about being in situations where I was going too fast, hadn't thought things through, hadn't planned ahead, hadn't been careful in my thought process. Like last night--I dreamt was rescuing fish from this big tank that had a bad leak and I had no place to put them. I hadn't thought to get any water ready for them...a bucket...something--so I was piling them on a counter and, of course, they were flipping all over and falling on the floor. And the water in the big tank was sinking fast...and I was trying to go so fast the net wasn't even in scoop position, had caught, and was flat so that the fish I did catch just flipped right out of it. I was crying...nothing I did worked because I was going too fast...wasn't thinking clearly at all...like my brain wasn't my own...and all those fish were going to die because of me.
Who said art was therapy?!
Anyways, I got this far and I was exhausted...done in. On the one hand, I think the end product is pathetically bad and it's embarrassing to even post it. But, on the other hand, this is quite a personal accomplishment for me no matter what it looks like. Hey--it's given me nightmares, right? So, I crossed some inner line, for sure.
This page spread was from Traci Bautista's free Strathmore workshop--week one. From April--LOL! Snail woman over here. I didn't do it exactly as I was supposed to, but good enough. I watched her video for week two last night and it's water colors and water soluble media!! Media I'm much more comfortable with and have already been doing some toe-dipping. But I still will be doing things I have never done with watercolors. All my backgrounds I had been playing with since last fall--it's like a brick wall for me to get past the background. Wish me luck! Maybe it won't be as difficult this time? I can hope. ;)
As I was cleaning up after my doodling late in the afternoon, I noticed on the horizon...
Some kind of fire. It didn't last long. I hope it was brush or something and not a home or business.
This morning we actually had both at once! Sun was trying to peek out, thunder was roaring, and it was raining.
The rain won...for now.
Well, today I plan to play with the water-soluble media. Traci wanted us to try a bigger sheet from this huge paper pad...which I don't have. I think it will be quite enough for me to play in my mixed media Visual journal. Or...maybe I could break in my watercolor Visual journal? Using actual watercolor paper would work better for this lesson. Silly how all this stresses me out. ;P
I honestly think I need to do a zentangle or something to get my feet back on the ground--LOL!
It's raining, but the thunder has passed.
Pushing past your comfort zone...hummm?
I'm sure this is probably good for me.
I know it is something I am supposed to be doing (GA).
I'm not sure why.
Have a great day!! :):)
I wonder what I'm afraid of?
"If we are bold, love strikes away the chains of fear from our souls."