Tuesday, May 20, 2014

Tuesday-6:15am

I know.  I am not usually up this early.  Been a whole week since we've chatted, so grab a cuppa.  ;)  
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Woke up at 4:30am and could not get back to sleep so I finally gave up.  Up before dawn for once.  Was a misty morning with a low blue cloud bank.  So humid that the windows were wet with condensation.  (Probably why I was so sore I couldn't sleep.)
Then the sun rose and has been dissipating the low fog. 
We've had some beautiful days this past week with lots of interesting clouds against blue skies... 
...blanketed skies and even thunderstorms. 
We've had clouds racing across the sky...
...and a mix of wispy and fluffy clouds meandering. 
The swallows are joyously dipping and soaring.  They take such delight in a windy day and keep Miss Karma entertained. 
 When Twinkle-Toes is not sleeping, of course.
"Oh, please...leave me be." 
The sun hits different spots during the warmer months.  Karma's been catching rays inside... 
...and outside. 
And stealing my spot on the porch chair as soon as I pack up my book and go inside. 
No art again this week.  *sigh*  This diet has literally taken over my life!  Although in this picture I was doing morning journaling and letter writing. 
On the 4th day I could have one cup of coffee in the mornings.  So, for all of you over at Elizabeth's at T-Stands For Tuesday, I got out my favorite big old mug (pre-thermal mug days) and this has been my companion every morning.  I can't use the thermal mug because it takes too long to drink--LOL!  I have way to much water to drink every day in short periods of time and coffee doesn't count in your water total. 
But tea does.  So I have been getting out my few old mugs I haven't used for years for cups of tea. 
Honestly...The Plan has not been easy for me...at all.  Now granted, I grew up in a household where basically the only spices were salt and pepper...and pepper was way too hot for me.  I only used salt on fried eggs and vegetables...if I even remembered.  We had lots of potatoes--covered with butter, gravy, or cheese sauce. (Au-gratin are still my favorite!)  We had broccoli and cauliflower floating in cheese sauce.  Green beans, corn, and carrots dripping in butter.  (I never liked carrots --hardly took any--none if I could get away with it--and by the time I am done with with them in The Plan I may never want to see another carrot as long as I live...unless it's covered in brown sugar glaze or cheese or something--LOL!)  Fruit was apples and bananas.  (My mom was really the more adventurous eater who liked peaches and beets and such.) 
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We had bread with meals most of the time and a tall glass or two of milk.  Meat and potatoes type of cooking...and lots of hotdishes (or casseroles, as they are known in other parts of the country).  I remember thinking french style green beans were exotic--LOL!  Our goulash was hamburger, pasta, and Campbell's tomato soup--that's it.  Nothing else.  Plain, plain cooking when I was a kid.  I remember being in Home Ec class in high school and finding out about Italian Seasoning!  I talked mom into buying a bottle and our goulash was forever changed.
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It took me years before I could eat broccoli or cauliflower without the cheese sauce (only glistening with butter).  I don't remember ever seeing garlic cloves until I was in my 20s.  Never tried to use it in cooking or actually eat it until I was in my 40s maybe.  Still can only use minute, minute amounts.  Way to strong for me--but keep in mind, I don't even like carrots because they are not team players.  They are so strong and overpower everything else (which actually came in handy eating the raw carrots and beets--LOL!).
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Okay.  I already have IBS, right?  That is THE reason I am doing this diet--to get rid of inflammation and the IBS.  But the diet with all its seeds and alien-to-me veggies and spices...well, let's just say maybe things have to get much worse before they get better?  Please Lord, I hope that is the case.  Only time will tell. *sigh*
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I had been eating all kinds of things for multiple last hurrahs the couple of weeks before I started the diet and was up about five pounds, so it was not a surprise that the first two days of the diet I lost them.  I didn't even really count that, to be honest.  And after that...I was exactly the same...every day.  Exactly.  (Have my new digital scale, you know.)  Which doesn't really tell me if I was eating foods that were actually good when it came to the inflammation because I wasn't losing anything.  According to the book, I should be losing...even if it was .2 lb a day.  Nope.  Not me.  Nothing.  Nada.  I have remained at my "normal" weight of the past few years.  Despite all this effort and water drinking and 80% foods I am not crazy about or dislike.
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Then yesterday I gained a little.  BUT--what caused it?  Which food was the culprit?  God only knows!  If it can take up to 72 hours to react--there were half a dozen new things in three days.  (She adds a lot of new things fast in the first 20 days--but they are all the least reactive foods for the majority of people.)  If it was just the last 24 hours--well, I had four new-to-me things, I think (my bet is on dairy as the culprit).  I'll have to test the new foods from those days again, I guess.  It was a non-test day yesterday so I didn't eat anything brand new and lost again today.  Almost back to ground zero.  This is not working like the book says, that's for sure.
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If I was not "reacting" to foods weight-wise (inflammation flag) all this past week...well, I can sure tell you that my body was sure reacting!!  Was it just strange foods?  Could be.  But that makes this all very confusing to tell what is going on and which foods to eat or not eat.  If I go by my body--I shouldn't be eating any of this stuff--ROFL!  
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Oh, and eventually the light bulb went off as to why I was extra bummed about the not being able to have liquids with meals and the endless chewing.  
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Okay--some of you may remember five years ago when the side of my face swelled up and I finally had to go to a dentist (no coverage, but have had after that happened).  Found out I had an impacted wisdom tooth, badly abscessed molar next to it, a cyst, and my jawbone was literally disintegrating.  Had to have surgery where they removed both teeth and had to shave down my jawbone and give me some kind of bone transplant (took me five years to pay that off).  They were absolutely, totally flabbergasted that I hadn't noticed the pain.  But I explained to them that I hurt all over--all the time--and my back (disintegrating spine) hurt worse than my jaw ever had.  Besides which my jaw is bone-on-bone from arthritis so it hurts all the time regardless.  I really do sound like I have fallen apart, don't I?  LOL!
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Well, from chewing and chewing and chewing 3 to 3 1/2 hours a day just to finish these "dry" meals...well, my jaw finally hurts worse than my back--ROFL!! 
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I've lost chewing teeth on the one side to boot!  
Lordy!  Lordy!  
You just have to laugh.
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But I was not laughing yesterday morning.
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This diet has been almost like having the flu.  Diarrhea coming and going, aching all over (as usual), stomach rolling and queasy (which it does after most of these meals).  But yesterday I hadn't even eaten the flax granola yet, my stomach was dancing, and the diarrhea decided to show up as soon as my feet hit the floor.  I knew it was going to be another BBD (bad bathroom day) and I wasn't going to be able to go over to Leah's to help her clean and organize the baby's things.  Was so bummed.  I've been waiting for this week with great anticipation because Leah said she'd come and get me every day if I wanted.  I'd gained for the first time and had no clue what caused it because I had too many new things.  The Plan hasn't been working like it is supposed to for me...the IBS has been worse since I started instead of better...I felt just totally defeated and fed up.  Almost cried.
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  I am not a cryer. 
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I did whine to Leah on the phone for over half an hour, though.  :( 
(Sorry, Leah.) 
Couldn't face another bowl of flax seeds.  
Skipped breakfast.
Had a second cup of black coffee for comfort food.
(First time I cheated on The Plan--could have been much worse.) 
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I can assure you, I was feeling immensely sorry for myself.  
Then the mailman called me down for a package?  Wasn't expecting anything.  (Luckily he called right after I had been in the bathroom so I was good for a few minutes--LOL!) 
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Here there was a package from Tracey Fletcher King!! 
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Now Tracey had mentioned a while back that she had a little something for my birthday, but she hadn't been able to get to the post office.  OMG!!!  I told her not to even think about my silly birthday!!  Good Lord!!  Those of you who follow Tracey know she's gone through the worst many months of surgeries, aggressive chemo and radiation--just finished up and is slowly regaining her strength and healing and growing her hair back.  She's a talented artist living in Australia with a brilliant, clever daughter who just started college (or "university") this year, a sweetie-pie puppy, and a devoted hubby.  She retained her sense of humor and positive outlook on life throughout this entire ordeal and has been an inspiration to so many people. 
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This lady took the time to think of me?!
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I opened the package and found a little graph notebook with original artwork on the cover!  Wow!  (Yes, she LOVES tea!)  
And then I saw baby books!!  
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Well, that did me in!  
I was wiping away tears!  
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Possum Magic is an Australian storybook about a grandma possum and her gradnchild...with magic and Aussie foods for cures.  This was her daughter Phoebe's favorite when she was little.  Awww!
And The Grandmother Book is an entire book for me to fill in the blanks to tell my grandchild all about me--LOL!  From family tree to where I went to school to favorite movies.  :):) 
And then--the piece de resistance...
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I had written Tracey a letter in one of my bookcards...and she made me a bookcard!!  I have never gotten one myself.  What a treat!  The cardstock cover is a copy of her original artwork.
Brown sheets of paper sewn inside... 
...that she discovered she could only write on one side of--LOL!  Yes, that takes some experimentation (how well I know), but do you think I cared?!  :):):) 
 I loved it!  
And I was feeling so very low all morning, too.  This fabulous package arrived on the absolute perfect day.   Thank you Tracey and Phoebe!!  :):)
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Anyways, I have not given up on The Plan.  I still stuck with it yesterday after skipping breakfast.  My day is all off kilter this morning.  I guess it's time to have water and pills and start my day.  At least I haven't been in the bathroom yet--ROFL!  Maybe I might make it over to Leah's today.  Her best friend, Amber is there this week, too.  Leah's birthday tomorrow!  :)  Well, only time and meals will tell--LOL!  Wish me luck as I shoulder on.  At least we've suddenly had some beautiful weather in the 70s!!  I can read on the porch, if nothing else.  ;)
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Oh, and I discovered this last week that naughty Blogger had randomly sent a few of my blog comments to spam!?  I have been trying to remember to check every once in a while.  I already know that feedburner doesn't always deliver everyones blog posts to my email.  *sigh*  All I can do is try to keep up the best I can.  One way or the other, this is going to be a busy week--so I am not sure if I'll be back before next Tuesday or not.  I hope so.  And I hope I have better news on the food front...and the bathroom front--LOL!  ;)
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May you have a day with memories to last a lifetime.  :):)
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“The manner of giving is worth more than the gift.” 
Pierre Corneille  

29 comments:

  1. Gorgeous, gorgeous pictures. And Blogger's been very naughty with me lately, too!

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  2. Rita, I am sorry the diet is not working out for you. I know what I would do with the diet. LOL
    I would keep the probiotic and go back to a normal semi healthy diet. HUGS!!

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  3. you got a sweet, sweet surprise package just when you needed it. how very thoughtful.

    try to stick with it a bit longer. i know you'll always wonder if you don't complete this journey. bless you.

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  4. What a wonderful pkg from Tracey. She's a super person isn't she?

    Me? I'd be off The Plan in a hurry. Maybe find a different diet for the problems you are trying to cope with. That said, if you continue I hope it works for you.

    Darla

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  5. I hope things will get easier for you. Trying a new diet is always challenging. But Wow! life is not bad, right? You got a wonderful package from Tracey. I love her sketches and sense of humor. So good for you get these lovely things on such a day.
    Hope you will have a great week
    Susan

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  6. I'm having a terrible time with Blogger. NONE of your photos are showing up, even though I've reloaded more than a few times. It may be because right before I visited, my ISP crashed again.

    I feel for you and this new plan. I know you have invested a lot of money in it, so I hope, at some point, it pays off.

    Thanks for sharing, and I assume your cup of coffee (or tea) with us for T this Tuesday.

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  7. Oh I feel your frustration! I've done several "plans" with the promise of weight loss, including simply counting calories. But, sadly, I've found nothing works as promised since turning 61 over year ago. That's why I no longer weigh myself and just concentrate on moving and healthy eating without complete deprivation.

    But I know you have much bigger problems and I was so hoping this program would work for you. It's tough to stick with something that doesn't appear to be helping at all. It's a conundrum for sure!

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  8. I forgot to mention. What a fantastic gift from Tracey. She is an amazing artist, and a really sweet person. I always laugh when I visit, even though I'm often crying at the end, too.

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  9. Dear Rita I am so sorry your body is putting you through all this distress despite working so hard at trying to resolve those same issues. I had IBS when I was much younger so I know how awful it can be. Somehow it went away on its own. But I must say I eat MUCH healthier now than I did growing up I a household similar to your foods :) I love Tracey and her art so what a perfectly planned treat for you just when you needed it most. Stay strong and it should get easier for you.

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  10. Hi, Rita! I signed on the dotted line and am now following you. I love your kitty cat and will always appreciate the pictures you post. I currently take care of two strays that live on my property. Cloud formations fascinate me. No two are the same. Puffy cumulus is my favorite type of skyscape. I am very sorry about your health challenges. Best of luck with your diet. I hope it gives you the relief you are seeking!

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  11. Sending very best wishes for you to get your health in good shape Rita...it can't be fun at all for you.
    Your cloud pix sure are great and I could almost feel Karma's warm fur in the photos ... looks like a good dream is being had in at least one ;)
    Hope you've had a happy T day...
    The lovely and talented Tracey sure made your day with her wonderful gifts!
    oxo

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  12. The grandmother book is great! (I have reason to hope a grandchild might show up in the distant future.) I'm so sorry you're ill. Do you think you should stay with the plan? It sounds terrible. I grew up on meat and potatoes and bread, too. I use a little salt. Can't stand pepper.

    Love,
    Janie

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  13. Oh no, I am so sorry to hear that the Plan is proving to be so much trouble. Veggies and flax seed can be hard to digest (and to chew!), so I can see where this diet could be hard on a person. At least you get to have coffee and tea now--ah, bliss!

    On the bright side, the package you got from your friend is great. The tea art on the notebook is adorable! Hope you have a Happy T Day.

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  14. I'm sorry to hear that the Plan is not giving you the expected results. I do give you a lot of credit for sticking to it. Maybe it is the "storm before the calm"? I hope so!

    Thanks for sharing the cloud photos, and I love seeing Karma snoozing!

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  15. I don't think this plan is working for you. How long before you call it quits? I'm worried about you!

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  16. Oh Rita, I'm so sorry things Have been rough with the plan! I'm so impressed that you're sticking with it. I hope you can go and help Leah soon.

    I've thought about trying something to see if Richard has food allergies--well, I know he has food allergies, pretty sure to dairy and gluten and maybe to eggs, too. But we were just going to stick to one food (say, rice) for a week and then slowly start adding things in. I love all the pix of clouds! We are almost to the point in the year where we won't see many clouds for several months in a row. I'm a big fan of weather, myself, and things get pretty boring out here during the summer months!

    As always, love seeing The many faces of Karma!

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  17. I have always loved Mem fox and also Julie vivas' illustrations, I suppose I grew up with them, but they are also very australian as well. Keep going, it will all work out in the wash!

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  18. My goodness you are popular today. Keeping in short... I love pb and j with a big glass of milk.

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  19. Great books great photos and Karma makes a visit here awesome

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  20. Great to hear you and Karma have had plenty of clouds and swallows to entertain you over the past week!

    When you change your diet, your body has to clean itself out. It has to get rid of all the rubbish that was in your system, then get used to the new foods. I imagine this process would be more unpleasant for you with your IBS, but it's not all that pleasant as a rule. Things should get better once your body gets used to the idea of a different diet. I would think so anyway. In theory, after your body is done cleaning itself out, you should see a bit more of a weight loss. I hope it works like that for you!

    That was great timing with the package; sounds like an amazing package too.

    Happy birthday to Leah!

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  21. Hello and Happy T Day a day late. Sorry the plan isn't working, it is pretty complicated which can loose the excitement over it I think. Hope it gets easier.

    WOW, I love the presents she sent you! Each one is so awesome and fun. ENJOY THEM!!

    I LOOOOOVE your cloud pictures, they are my favorite to take too. Its so neat how they can be different each day.

    Thanks for sharing and have a good week.

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  22. Hugs.

    Remember, the struggle is to be able to enjoy the grandchild.

    I suspect you "held" the weight because you were drinking so much more water than usual - and that you are really loosing weight - it's just masked by the extra fluid in your body (which will leave in time).

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  23. oh my goodness dear...you really are having quite a time, but so glad you got the cheerful gifts in the mail from Tracie! thanks for sharing them with us, and hang in there! love your cloud & sunrise photos...

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  24. Just curious, this so called "The Plan" is this that Daniel Plan? I have seen some books in stores about it. How to eat/live healthier lives. I have been really on the fence about getting something like that, but am curious.

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  25. Oh dear me, Rita, that sounds a barbaric plan. Are you sure this is the right thing for you to do?

    There must be easier ways to ameliorate IBS. So much roughage would make anyone ill.

    By the way, I love carrots, eat them at least three times a week. Without sauce. But I’ve always eaten lots of vegetables and very little in the way of sauces.

    Take care and don’t go mad with the plan, perhaps a day off occasionally would be a good idea?

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  26. Keep your chin up! Love your sky shots - and Karma too.

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  27. OMG, (((Rita)))!! What an ordeal!! I've read your latest post before this one so I know you scrapped The Plan and, I say, GOOD ON YA, MATE!!! No diet is worth that kind of torture! My heart went out to you as I read what you were going through. I think your Grandchild is going to adore you just as you are!

    OH MY! What precious gifts from Tracey! I LOVE Possum Magic...the illustrations are beautiful too. The Grandmother Book sounds like a wonderful idea and I know you will enjoy filling it in.

    I'm off to comment on your latest post now. xo



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  28. I am bowled over with admiration at your strength and stoicism in sticking with this diet. I haven't been checking blogs for a couple of weeks so I read your above post first, and see you quit. Sounds like the best thing to do, even better than I thought... but wow, I would give you a medal for your perseverance and determination!
    Im really sorry your doctor doesn't seem to be able to help, nor I guess do IBS websites. I have a relative with it (more mildly than you) and it does seem that his comes and goes, so sometimes it is better of its own accord. I hope that happens with you sometimes too.

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  29. What a great friend and such sweet books. You will love being a grandma. :)

    I was wondering how that diet would work with your IBS. If I eat something I know I shouldn't, look out. And trying anything new can be quite a challenge. I hope things turn around for you.

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