Saturday, December 03, 2011
Pawing the seat of the chair under the table getting ready for a snooze.
Notice how dark and grey it is outside? Been that way for a couple of days now. And cold.
Guess what I found!
My cupcake template!
Oh, the small joys in life!! :)
Had gotten inbetween some other papers, like I had suspected. It was cut too small, as you can see, in my experimenting so it was perfect for a sample. Instead of using the square die they will be cut with the rectangular die you see on the right. Much more balanced.
This is the next big project...finish the birthday cards for 2012.
My December Ink Drop arrived already yesterday!
Wintery Blues! I only have one empty pen...hummm. Guess I'll have to pick one of the five to play with.
Iggy found the Handi-Wheels in Fargo online before I had even looked and posted the link in the comments. Good Lord! $11 one way! $22 round trip! This is because it is a wheel-chair accessible bus and they mostly transport them, it appears. But why take such advantage of people in wheelchairs? Is it because their insurance or the state or federal government pays for the transportation? I just found that ridiculously high!! ??? Guess I'll stick with the $5.00 round trip senior bus. Wait till I tell Caroline!
I decided to do my meditations at night before I go to bed. I thought it might help with sleep, too. Anyways, this first week is all about "Who Am I?" So last night we're doing this visualization of walking down a blank corridor slightly tilting downwards...no problem. We see an elevator and go inside and push the button...no problem. We are hurtling upwards so fast that when the elevator stops we're kind of lifted off the floor a little...wait a minute here! We walk out onto the roof of the tallest building on top of the tallest mountaintop...Huston we have a problem!
I know I am supposed to feel "on top of the world", but my stomach was doing flip flops! And when I can focus he's telling us to shout, "Who am I?"..."Who am I?"..."Who am I?"
"Afraid of heights!!!"
That visual meditation did nothing to calm me down before bedtime--ROFL!
But later on in the meditation he did keep saying softly, "Who are you?...Who are you?...Who are you?" and then he shut up for a long while and let us be.
Two pictures came to me.
The first one was when my mom had this job where she drug us three bored little kids along in the car while she delivered photographs all over Minneapolis for a photography studio. I was watching all the people in the cars, trucks, and buses. So many of them seemed bored or sad. I decided to cheer them up. I'd smile and wave through the back seat windows...hoping to catch people's attention...especially if they looked unhappy or crabby. And most of the time when I caught their eye anything from a corner lift on the side of the mouth to a full blown laugh would occur. If they gave me the cold stare--I frowned...I drooped...I grabbed my heart with both hands...and pleaded for a smile. That usually worked. Oh, the smiling and laughing...just warmed me all over!! Still does, just remembering. I even got my younger brother and sister to join me sometimes. I wonder if they remember?
The second picture that came to me was me lying on my back hidden in the prairie grass in the field with my dog panting beside me on a summer day watching the white clouds drift by in the blue sky and the metallic dragonflies landing on the tips of the grass that waved tall in the breeze. I was eleven. I was empty and full at the same time. I felt connected to everything and yet thinking nothing at all. Blankly expansive...as my dog drooled on my belly as I slowly scratched her ear.
Who am I?
I am social. I am solitary.
I love to lift people's spirits. I love animals and nature.
I am me.
But...I am afraid of heights and moving fast. ;)
Have an enlightening weekend.
"Until mankind can extend the circle of his compassion to include all living things, he will never, himself, know peace."