Thursday, September 10, 2009

Thursday-7:45am--Paper Collection

And do we have pictures today! Just spent almost 45 minutes loading these--hehe! Dagan just went in to surgery (8:25am). I just got a text from Leah. Could be anywhere from 2-6 hours. (Depending on how it goes with the leads, I'm sure.)
Meanwhile--here's what Leah sat and did while she was here Tuesday. Trimmed the whole stack I had organized and made us two white cardstock templates (show you later how we will use them).
They are all trimmed to exact size. There will be an edge of cardstock showing on the front. We have these extra small pieces left over. Leah kept them with each front because we might use them on the inside--an option.
Yesterday my Dick Blick order came already! They are always so prompt! And talk about packaged well! Inside this package the paper was also sandwiched in between two more pieces of cardboard that were wrapped with this non-stick saran wrap type stuff, too. Awesome!
Here's the bounty! All 80-90 lb. papers for journals and sketchbooks--tada!
Even going to try some colored drawing/writing paper! :)
Of course, because the new paper arrived, that meant I had to drag out all my other large paper. And I promised to show you my years of collecting--hehe! Many years ago I came up with the idea of buying these two cardboard displays for the largest papers (mostly 22 X 30 and larger).
This one has the large sheets of purchased handmade paper. On top were the only two sheets of 90 lb paper that I actually had--hot pressed that I used for calligraphy projects. Those two sheets got put in with the new paper from Dick Blick so that all the lighter weight paper is together in one place.
Here's the rest of it.
So much fun to be able to actually see what I have and get more organized. I love that mottled brown paper on the top!
The other cardboard display holds all my 140 lb. cold press watercolor paper.
Almost every one of the sheets of paper you will see I bought on sale, of course. Including all the new paper from Dick Blick. This watercolor paper would be a lot more expensive now than they were when I bought them up between 8 and 15 years ago. :)
Then I have these two black boxes that hold oversized paper--but they're not quite as large as the cardboard displays.
One holds just paper for pastels.
Ha! I guess I bought the same size ones on the top from Cheap Joe's. :)
The second black box I knew really needed sorting. Had become a catch all. Still is, but now it is a more organized catch all--hehe!
There were four types of paper in there. First the pretty paper--handmade and printed.
I bought up the printed ones to be the surprising inside covers actually. :)
Can't tell I love the natural looking handmade paper, eh?
Then I had a big stack of various smooth white and cream papers--from thinner to thicker--that I had used for calligraphy and drawing. There are even two large pieces of parchment-like paper in there.
There are mostly single sheets. I'll have to go back and go thru this batch more carefully and double-check. I was getting too tired and sore to do it yesterday. I need at least two sheets to make a sketchbook. Unless I decide to make one up with several different papers inside--never know? Just might! :)
Then--all of these papers are the same--just in different colors. Bought these for inside covers actually, too.
They have this textured, block look--so you have a plain color but a little something extra.
And finally--actual book cloths!
They do have almost the feeling of cloth and paper combined.
This one is my favorite! Embossed roses! Awesome! Going to have to make a special journal out of this some day. :)
I really had big plans for "some day", didn't I? There were many times I thought it was so silly and wasteful of me to collect supplies for things I didn't even know how to do--but it just felt right. (Also, I was getting definite GA encouragement--hehe!) We never know how our lives are going to go. Mine has been a winding path. (That's probably an understatement.)
But here I am today--with all my supplies (and books) around me--learning these skills and having a wonderful time. I may wish I could do more in a day, but I can't complain. I was knocked right off my path. Dead stop. Unexpected--jarring--depressing--life altering. When I was so low--tears of pain and self-pity--it was the joy of creating and learning that helped lift me up again. How can you miss all these books and supplies--ROFL! They surround me--nudge me--hold me up! That GA is one smart guy. :):)
And I know GA is watching over Dagan today--along with Dagan's angels and guides. I am waiting for the good news. :):)

Wednesday, September 09, 2009

Wednesday-11am

Well, I just spent half an hour trying to load pictures onto my blog and Blogger just won't let me. Keeps saying errors and/or internal errors? I even went completely out of Blogger and came back in just now--and nope--same thing. So--no pictures today.

Yesterday was a busy day. Dagan and Leah came by for a visit. He has this whole week off because he thought his surgery was today instead of tomorrow--hehe! Only one extra day off, actually, because everyone was off on Monday at his office due to the holiday, of course. Today is his pre-surgery routine--this afternoon--so they took off early this morning for Minneapolis. Surgery tomorrow at 8am. They are replacing his leads, too--so he'll be staying overnight and coming back on Friday. They'll stay at a motel close to the hospital tonight.

He'll be at Children's Hospital, so Leah can stay on a cot in his room overnight with him tomorrow night. Yup! Children's Hospital. :) They have so many kids who have had such complex, cutting edge surgeries that regular hospitals don't know much about and who have survived and grown up into adults that Children's had to dedicate a floor to the "older" patients years ago. There are people older than Dagan who show up at Children's every so often for surgeries and that still get their yearly checkups with their pediatric cardiologists like Dagan does. Children's is connected by underground tunnel to Abbott Northwestern Hospital, also. So if they need equipment that Children's doesn't have they can share Abbott's facilities. They use Abbott's cath lab, for example. Good thing! Dagan outgrew the children's hospital gowns many, many years ago--hehe!

Anyways, Dagan and Leah came over--and first blew bubbles for Karma. :) She is getting better and better about being more social. (We never knew what changed her attitude when she hit adulthood in the first place?) While they were here, Caroline showed up to clean--came and went. Leah sat and trimmed up that whole stack of card parts while she was here! I have pictures--maybe tomorrow Blogger will let me put them up? I forgot to take pictures while they were here, tho--duh! Rather chaotic--hehe! So it's just pictures of what Leah worked on.

Let's see...what else? I caught up on blogs. Seems like it is often either or with me. Either blogs or emails--hehe! I can't ever seem to get to everything in a day--or often even in a few days. Oh--and there's Flickr and Facebook....etc. Too many cyber irons in the fire--hehe! I try to get to everything at least once a week, put it that way. And now I have gone back on Sparks, too, as of yesterday. Decided to keep track of foods again. They have an online way that is free--keeps track of calories, carbs, fats, and proteins for you--nice! I started up again back in January--but Sparks got lost in my online shuffle. I'll see if I can keep up with the tracking now this time?

Leah and I will work on the scrap cards next week. I think we will probably rotate weeks from cards to papermaking. We both do sooo enjoy making these particular cards. I don't know why, but we just love these cards! We love putting them together, choosing embellishments--the variety and yet the similarity of style--and we just love the end products. They equally appeal to both of us, I guess. Oh--and then there's the fact that we are recycling paper scraps from my bookcard covers in such a wonderful way. :) I know--us crafters can be a little weird--hehe!

Today 70's and sunny! Pause day between storms they say. I am washing clothes. Karma is sleeping--big surprise. I will be writing up more descriptions for Leah for some items for Etsy--emailing them to her. And thinking good thoughts. :):)

Tuesday, September 08, 2009

Tuesday-10:30am

Relaxed?
Karma and I had an R&R day yesterday. :)
I watched Sunshine Cleaning:
Financially on shaky ground yet determined to send her son to a top private school, Rose Lorkowski (Amy Adams) teams up with her unreliable sister, Norah (Emily Blunt), to start a new company that specializes in biohazard removal and crime scene cleanup. Tired of doing all of the work for other people, whether in her job cleaning homes or in her failed relationships, Rose is finally ready to use her entrepreneurial spirit to tidy up her own life.
I loved it! I would never want to do anything like that for a living, but it is interesting to learn about--from your armchair. Back when I had cable I watched police shows and documentaries where they found bodies, etc.
I got as close to it as I ever care to. When I worked in the senior building one of the ladies (with diabetes who could hardly feel her legs) somehow rubbed a scab off her ankle and nearly bled to death in the laundry room! By the time she noticed the blood pumping out of her ankle her slippers were sloshing and the floor was so wet she was having a hard time standing up. She didn't want to get blood on the hallway carpeting, she said, so she sat down in the blood and called for help. A neighbor lady finally came to investigate and called me immediately. (I was the overnight, live-in emergency person.) I grabbed some clothing and pressed on the pumping vein. Told the neighbor to call 911. I kept pressure on the wound until they came and kept the two ladies calm. (I have been known to be good in a crisis.)
But--after the ambulance took her away I was left with what looked like a murder scene! Blood was everywhere! Had sprayed on the washers and dryers--the lady had fallen a couple of times and so there were bloody hand prints all over the machines and the table and the door and the wall--pools of blood were thick and congealing. Just like the girls in the movie when they started, I knew nothing about how to handle "biohazard materials". Never even occurred to me it was anything "biohazard"--was just Myrtle's blood. I lived there. They were all like family to me. So, I just started cleaning.
The neighbor lady kept me company from the hallway (sweet woman) and was moral support for me for the first couple of hours while I tackled my "crime scene". Not knowing any better I took the bloody plastic sheeting and assorted trash from the EMT's and put it in a plastic trash bag and carried it down to the dumpster. I washed all Myrtle's clothing three times except for the few really saturated items that were on the floor--they went into the plastic trash bag. I just scrubbed everything up--no gloves. I learned that congealed blood is like very soft liver that splits thru your fingers when you try to move it. (Almost lost my cookies!) Was kind of like trying to pick up mercury. Had to use a broom and dustpan. Masses of blood does have a strong odd coppery smell that I probably won't ever forget.
Anyways, when I was finally done (took hours!) and after I had gone home and showered--I walked back up to take a good long look--check to see if I had missed anything anyone could see, you know? And when I stood there looking at the sparkling clean laundry room--and while I checked the insides of the machines--it felt really good. Was one of the most horrible things I had ever had to do, and yet you really felt like you had fixed something. Helped. Saved all my senior friends from waking up to a horrible, frightening scene, you know. I could have shut the door and put a sign on it and left it for the maintenance man to arrive in the morning. [He was very glad I didn't do that, I could tell--hehe! I did tell him to move the machines and check underneath them and anywhere I couldn't reach on the walls for blood. There was more.] I got mildly reprimanded for not using biohazard rules--even tho I had never been given them or told the rules.
Anyways, maybe that is why I felt I had a special affinity to the movie? (But it has been rated highly by viewers.) I watched the bonus feature where they talked to two women who actually did do that for a living. And--well--I'll pass. What I went thru was easy peasy compared to what they have to do in real life at crime scenes and death locations. I am just glad that there are people in this world who will do these jobs. Say! I wonder if they have ever had that guy do that on that show "Dirty Jobs"?
On a lighter note--I watched Duplicity on Sunday while I was working on the cards.
Julia Roberts and Clive Owen co-star in this curveball-throwing thriller as a pair of romantically involved corporate operatives who are entangled in a bitter rivalry between two mammoth pharmaceutical companies. Paul Giamatti and Tom Wilkinson convincingly round out the heavyweight cast as warring big pharma CEOs in this intriguing espionage effort from writer-director Tony Gilroy (Michael Clayton).
Wasn't a good idea to be watching that movie while doing something else. Was one of those movies where you needed to pay close attention to detail. I got the gist of it, tho--and the twist at the end. Was okay--pretty good, I guess. I may have liked it better had I paid closer attention.
Today--Caroline is coming this afternoon. Dark day. Supposed to rain. Got to get moving. :):)

Monday, September 07, 2009

Monday-11am

I spent the entire day matching up the 3"X 6" scraps (from the bookcard covers) with coordinating paper to make up cards.
This is an example of what the finished cards look like. (These are already spoken for.)
I went thru and took just one of each of the leftover pairs of paper--so no two will be alike from this stack. I had a 6" X 6" pack of solid colored papers from Impressions, so I cut those all in half. Matched up printed tops and bottoms--one or two per solid colored sheet--and stacked them up.
I think I can get two solid color bottom pieces from each 3" X 6" sheet. I think I only need 1.5" X 6"--we'll see. (I never actually measured them before.) The cards themselves are 5.5 inches wide, so these all will get trimmed down on the width later, too.
In fact, after I have made a few and find out exact measurements, I might sit and cut them all down to size next--the whole stack.
Anyways, getting this far took me a few days--but got the majority done yesterday. Karma kept me company. Here she's snoozing against the table base.
Leah got four bookcards posted on Etsy last night. One handmade paper cover was made from packing paper and dried aquarium plants--hehe! Personally--that is one of my favorites. I guess I'll continue to dry out the trimmings from my overgrown aquarium plant. :):)
Well, two more days and Dagan and Leah head for Minneapolis. Dagan is scheduled for Thursday morning at 8am to have his pacemaker replaced. I haven't heard whether they plan to replace the leads this time, also, or not. Maybe they don't know until they can look at them? As usual, any and all prayers and good wishes sent his way are greatly appreciated.
Traveling has become so difficult for me. Having me along can turn a four-hour trip into five to six hours with all my having to stop to stretch, etc. This procedure is out-patient (altho Dagan has had to be kept overnight a couple times for outpatient procedures). They'll be driving back on Thursday or Friday--depending. If Dagan was having open heart surgery again there'd be no way I wouldn't be there--period. It is times like this that I am reminded of my body's limitations.
Besides--I just heard this morning that Jerry and Barb (Dagan's father and stepmother) are driving down from Henning to be there this time. So--it is best I am not going anyways. Long story short--she and I are like oil and water. Barb has gone off on me when Dagan was in the hospital before--a couple of times--separate surgeries. My body is like a stress barometer these days. Be like sitting in a room with a powder keg not knowing if it will go off or not. Last time we were both there for a surgery she didn't explode. Was very tense and uncomfortable, tho. Granted--she may have mellowed over the years, but you never know how deeply someone's hatred runs. *sigh*
Anyways, for the simpler outpatient procedures these last years, I have left them to husband and wife. Mom is not really needed in the first place, you know? I used to be the one who was there for him, but now that is Leah's place. I am there for support, of course--always. :):) But I know full well that intimacy between two people when you are tending them after surgery. And now it is between husband and wife--not mother and son, you know? Has been for many years. And isn't that a blessing? They've been married over seven years now! :):)
And they know--absolutely--that if anything happened and they needed me--I'd jump into PitaPaseo and be on my way to Minneapolis! They are my heart! I love them beyond words. :):)
Dagan will be fine. I'll go visit them when he comes home. :):)
Meanwhile--I'll be watching movies and puttering with cards--and Karma will keep me laughing.

Sunday, September 06, 2009

Sunday-8:15am

Was a relaxing day.
I was puttering about with card making yesterday. That is my plan for the long weekend--putting together a few cards and maybe even start on some bookcards. Been sunny and 80's during the day--cool at night. Only 61 degrees at the moment. Absolutely perfect weather for the long holiday weekend. :)

I've been watching an older British series (1981) from Netflix called A Fine Romance:

Dame Judi Dench and her real-life husband, Michael Williams, star as mismatched couple Laura and Michael in this wry, early-1980s, British television series. A comedy of errors keeps linguist Laura (who's translating a German textbook on urinary infections) and struggling landscape gardener Michael from hooking up romantically. As usual, Dench is a prickly delight. The first season contains nine episodes.

I adore Judi Dench, so I had to order it. It's interesting that her husband plays her boyfriend in the series. He was mainly a stage actor, I guess. The show is about a couple of middle-aged, ordinary, foibled people struggling to have a relationship. It is absolutely charming!

I have Duplicity and Sunshine Cleaning to watch while I work on cards. What a lovely morning! :)

Saturday, September 05, 2009

Saturday-1:15pm

After the moth--hehe!
Another thrilling hunter adventure that I'm sure will be recorded in Miss Karma's diary--ROFL!
Karma was sitting behind her chair watching the bookcase--upright and alert, not lounging like she is here hoping for a repeat performance and another trespassing moth. Little throaty trills escaped in her tense ecstasy despite the fact that she was trying to be ever so quiet so as not to alert me--the kleenex/paper towel wielding, bug killing spoilsport.
Karma usually captures her bugs on the porch and torments them to her heart's content without my knowledge. Or she carries them in here when she doesn't feel like eating them--knowing I will end a game she's already bored with. But occasionally an errant and energetic fresh moth gets inside--and the chase is on! You would not believe how fast this fat cat can move and how high she can still leap--ROFL!
I went looking. The moth was sitting on a shelf of the bookcase--but it evaded me and flapped down toward the floor. Bad mistake. Miss Karma was on it like white on rice! Immediately injured it enough to take the wind out of its sails and yet allow it to keep flapping and flopping about on the carpet for her entertainment.
I came over armed with my Puff's tissue to capture it myself--put an end to its misery and Karma's moth safari. Apparently, since this has been such a cool summer, Karma hasn't had as many hunter opportunities and she wasn't giving up her prize so easily. Ears back, she snatched it up gently in her mouth and carried it away several feet--put it down and let it flop about. I'd make my move--and she'd make hers. And so it went--all over the apartment! Me giggling and following her around with Puffs in hand. I wanted to see how determined she was. And I think she wanted to see how determined I was. This went on for like ten minutes. (I'm chuckling writing this.)
I won.
But, I swear--if a cat could laugh...
After the excitement was over Karma went back and laid behind the chair right under that bookcase. Remembering and wishing, I suppose. I think this is what she dreams about when her mouth and feet twitch in her sleep. :)
Anyways, I promised I'd tell you about Miss Karma, Leah, and the Pavlov bubbles scheme. It is working--tada!!! Every time Leah comes over she gets the bubbles and goes into the living room and sits on the ottoman and blows bubbles for Karma. I do not blow any bubbles for Karma at all at any other time. After a few times of bubble blowing thrills--ha! Miss Karma rubbed on Leah's legs! A couple of times now! She doesn't run and hide under the bed when Leah comes any more. And she has stayed out after Leah stops blowing bubbles. Well, except when she had followed me into the kitchen and Leah came walking in and Karma felt trapped. Then she did let out a short hiss and ran under the bed. This will work! I know it will. Pretty soon she will see Leah and think--fun--bubbles--whee! Pavlov's theory in action. :):)
While I was writing this I got another automated phone call! I am so sick of them calling at all hours. I just started getting them a few months ago and they are increasing in number steadily. They are cold calls--because I am getting calls about my mortgage, my house, my credit cards, etc--things I do not even have. Does anyone know how a person can go about reporting them when you are on the no call list? I have tried to wait to talk to a person to tell them to take me off their list--once--long process. And that company still calls me anyways. Grrrrrr!!
Okay--enough of that. Yesterday I got out my pre-cut printed papers and was thinking about making up some cards and bookcards--started playing. So that is probably what I will do today while I watch Netflix DVDs. We've got a bit of a warm up for the Labor Day weekend here--80s--and supposed to be dry! That's nice for all the people who will be visiting family and having picnics. Have a great day--a great weekend! Hug your loved ones. :):)

Friday, September 04, 2009

Friday-noon

Wow! My package arrived from Sibylla!! She is a German lady in our Chinese Brush Painting group who currently lives with her husband in Shanghai, China. She said she had enclosed some goodies--well--wow! wow! wow!
She sent samples of exotic papers...these textured ones are awesome! Look at that dragon paper!
Ooops--got this one out of order. Can't pull and move my pictures any more on Blogger for some reason. This is a very thin brush that she taped to the spine of the book--perfect for detail work!! Such surprises!!
She also sent samples of fancy rice paper. Awesome!
And THEN--all these small paintings she did!! What a joy!






The first section of the book must be background information--shows paintings from the masters. (It's in Chinese.) Then it gets into the gongbi examples of detail painting of the four gentlemen...



...plus more!! :):)

And then there are some pictures that seem to show the comparison of gongbi drawings and the spontaneous painting styles.
I haven't even had the chance to look closely at the entire book yet. Actually forgot to check the mail and went down late last night. Was like a midnight Christmas up here in Fargo--hehe! Thank you so very much, Sibylla!! What a treat! :):):)
What did I do all day? CashWise delivery came. More low and no carb than last month--no cow's milk, loaves of bread, etc. I did order some soy milk and some rye crisp & corn tortillas as substitutes. Interesting.
I worked on my budget and bills for September. Made orders for mailers, paper, and one small one for fun! :) I got Leah and I some rigid and some small bubble mailers for our Etsy shop from Royal Mailers. A variety of 22" X 30" watercolor and drawing/writing paper for making journals/sketchbooks from Dick Blick. And then some fun stuff from Impressions.
Leah stopped by to pick up some more items for the Etsy shop. Takes a while to photograph and post, but I sent a couple kinds of beaded bookmarks and some hand-painted clothespin refrigerator magnets.
Our plan to get Karma to look forward to seeing Leah (instead of hiding under the bed and hissing at her) is working like a charm. I'll explain tomorrow. That's enough for today. Have a nice Labor Day weekend! And again--thank you, thank you, thank you, Sibylla! :) :)

Thursday, September 03, 2009

Thursday-1pm

This is the ritual. Our treat game. Karma sits and stares at me by her treat drawer. She'll meow at me if I don't notice her.
If I still ignore her or have told her to wait and then taken too long--the next thing she does is threaten to tip over my coffee thermos or glass. That usually gets a rise out of me--hehe!
See--she is so predictable I can take pictures--hehe! And we both know it is just an attention getting threat at this point. She actually did knock over my coffee once when she was little and found out she got in really big trouble and didn't get any treats for a long time. I know she doesn't really want me genuinely mad at her. But I also know that if she gets mad enough at me--she won't care. I don't really like her telling me what to do--so I make her wait a bit. She doesn't like to wait. So it is kind of like a treat dance--ROFL!
When I open the drawer she begins to rub her face and head against it in delight., of course. Suddenly all sweet and lovey.
But if I don't move fast enough for her (I sometimes open the drawer to keep her farther away from my coffee and bide some time) she seems to think she can pull the entire drawer down.
How she thinks she'd open those little jars is anybody's guess--hehe!
This is all my own fault, of course. Real treats were too expensive so I buy regular dry cat food and put it in these little jars--so I give them to her much too freely. But it has to be something she doesn't normally eat in her regular food dish because she can tell. Honestly--I've tried to fool her. She gets really undone with me--hehe! And I don't know how she can tell because I make up a mix of dry foods for her--like 3-4 small boxes or bags at a time. But once it has been used in her dry food mixture--it no longer qualifies as a treat. No lie! She'll walk away from it and keep bugging me for a "real" treat. She must have some nose on her!
I know--I know--never reward bad behavior--ROFL! Not a good idea. Do not try this at home. Yup! She's spoiled rotten. But she still knows who's boss around here.
I guess I have turned into one of those typical old cat ladies. Of course, I knew the odds were stacked against me. I have always loved my cats.....and birds, rats, guinea pigs, iguana, dogs, salamanders, chameleons, skunk, hamsters, turtles, fish, toads, frogs, mice, etc.
Yup! Have had a lot of critters over the years. Miss Karma is the most unique cat I have ever lived with. (I thought that sounded better than weirdest, oddest, strangest, or most peculiar--hehe!) Probably love her more because of that, ya think? :) :)
Love is good. No matter who, what, where, or why--right? Hehe!
I was up till 3:30am finishing The Pillars of The Earth. Just had to see how it ended and couldn't put it down. Now I can start the sequel after a little break.
Have a great day--what's left of it--hehe!

Wednesday, September 02, 2009

Wednesday-8:15pm-Moxi Java Sunday

Reading Iggy's post today--
--I was inspired to post my very first assignment in my first college writing class. My spying didn't go too well, either--hehe!
P.S. I just spent 20 minutes trying to get Blogger to let me keep my paragraph breaks--ARRRRGGGG! Sometimes I get really annoyed with Blogger! Sorry I couldn't fix it. :( Hope you like it anyways.
P.S.S. The paragraph breaks worked on the Soulcomfort's Stories blog--easier to read if you want to catch it over there.
Moxi Java Sunday

By the time I had my mug of Moxi Mocha in hand, I realized I would be sitting in the glaring sunlight by the window. By process of elimination this was the only spot left whereby I could observe the entire shop and yet no one would be able to read over my shoulder. A spy needs to plan prudently. I had an assignment on observation for my writing class and my first instincts screamed, “No! No! Don’t do it!” My instincts can be quite loud and pushy when they catch the scent of guilt in the air. My mother’s voice echoed in my mind’s ear and I shuddered as I sat down in the little wooden chair. “It’s not polite to stare. Mind your own business.” The legitimacy of my mission muffled the memory. After all, real writers who actually get paid must do this kind of thing all the time.

I settled in and absorbed the intense, toasty smell of coffee beans that was nearly imbedded into the very walls. The rumble of a train passing through town filtered into the shop as I cased the joint. First of all, absolutely no one could help but notice the two ladies at one of the center bench tables on the south wall. Around them on the floor, table, and bench were strewn books, notebooks, papers, and notes like some kind of an academic explosion! They looked to be in their thirties to early forties. The one lady had very short, blonde hair, sharp features, was wearing shorts and seemed to be in a perpetual forward lean. The other lady had shoulder length, dark, fluffy hair framing a pretty round face with light eyes. She was all dressed in black and was settled quite comfortably into the bench. They were deeply engaged in a discussion of a legal case record. The conversation was dominated by the clear, clipped voice of the lady in shorts. Twas an innocuous conversation. I relaxed.


To the right of the law ladies in the corner table sat a young girl in a T-shirt and jeans with her dark hair pulled up high on the back of her head in a jaunty ponytail. She was scrunched down over a paperback book she had pulled from her backpack and was taking notes in a little spiral notebook. Slowly. Painfully. She would pause often, look about and linger over her coffee. Her dark eyes confessed that she went to a much more interesting and comforting place. But then she would return, rearrange herself on the bench and hunker down over the book again for a short while. Apparently whatever it was she had to do was no easier to do at the coffee shop.
High spirited laughter caught my attention. The young waitress had a pile of books on the table closest to her workstation in the corner. I was impressed that she had remembered the one and only other time I had been there, and that I had a moxi-mocha with vanilla whipped cream. She knew several customers by name and preference. Each time she was finished waiting on customers she retreated to her table to chat with a girlfriend who’d stopped by. The waitress had light brown hair that was piled in a wild, random pattern above her wire rim glasses, huge eyes, and wide grin. Her friend had short dark hair that radiated electric energy. Her left leg seemed to be practicing a sprint and nearly became a blur as they sat discussing the difficulty in locating research materials in the library. It made me jittery to watch her, so I continued my investigation of the patrons.

To my left in the center of the room two tables were singularly occupied. At the table closest to the workstation sat a charming little lady in her hot pink sweat suit and tennis shoes. Her graying hair was pulled up in a neat bun and behind her wire rims you could see tasteful light brown eye shadow. She had on a touch of rouge and her faded lipstick had probably matched her outfit when she had left the house. Her purse was in one chair and her green backpack was on the floor by her feet. A stack of books surrounded her on the table and she wrote steadily. She never looked up. She never drank her coffee.
Lastly, I attempted to focus on the ambiguous person who was at the table closest to me. My first impression had been that it was a female. I had tried to sneak a couple of glances since I first sat down, but had not been able to make a quick gender determination. The person was sitting in a chair facing me and that made it very difficult to play detective. Occasionally the person did lean over the table to write on note cards and then I could take longer looks.
I had thought it was a woman, but the more I looked the more I was not sure. On the table were two large, hardbound books that were open and layered upon each other, a refillable plastic Moxi Java mug, and two perfect stacks of huge note cards. I had never seen note cards that big before. They must have been five by seven inches! They were bright canary yellow. They were not pink or blue. On the upper right hand side of the table the cards were stacked perfectly, smoothly and evenly. A big, pudgy hand with short bitten nails would pick up one card carefully off the top of the right hand pile. While holding the card with thumb and forefinger, the stack was neatly squared with the back three fingers. After very earnestly taking some notes, the card was placed on the left hand pile and swiftly squared with the now unencumbered hand. An interesting, acquired, single-handed skill, but it told me nothing.

I watched the person write with a huge, thick, black pen and didn’t think it looked like a pen that a woman would use. Leaning and concentrating over the note cards gave me the opportunity to assess; very short, flat, brown hair; a round face with a bulb of a nose; dark, thick eyebrows; rather coarse, rough skin; no make-up, purse, ring, or earrings; and wearing a big, black, plastic watch on the left wrist. Having a huge, barrel shaped, lumpy, wide body I could not determine if there were any specific lumps under the baggy, black T-shirt that were conclusively feminine lumps. Even the big, well-worn, brown, leather book bag with it’s short handles was non-descriptive. When I caught a glimpse of black polyester shorts and the black T-shirt tucked in with a plain brown leather belt, I felt like I had finished a jigsaw puzzle. I could not imagine a woman wearing that outfit voluntarily. Combining that fact with the watch and the pen, I came to the conclusion that it must be a man. I congratulated myself on being not only a good spy, but a talented detective as well. That man had never been aware of me staring, as my mother would say. I was rather enjoying the spy biz!
“Cute shoes!” exclaimed the waitress. She and her friend launched into a new discussion on each of their running partners and how often these partners had backed out of prearranged runs lately. Meanwhile, I hadn’t even noticed the law ladies had begun retrieving all their various supplies. They were scooping and stooping and stashing and sorting. The sun had finally moved just enough to not make my eyes water. A young couple ran in for coffees to go. The waitress filled the shop with the horrendously violent sounds of her machines while they waited holding hands in their own sweet world. Shortly they were out the door and the waitress was back at her table. I wondered why everyone sitting in this coffee shop on a Sunday afternoon was studying something? Another train passed through town and I could feel it through my shoes.
Underneath the light, laughing of the young girls and the drone of light jazz, I picked up the soft, low sound of sorrow in someone’s voice. It was the dark, fluffy lady. She had finished packing up her things but was seated again. Her face had changed. The lady in shorts quickly sat back down across from her and leaned halfway across the table so as to see her eyes and hear the soft sorrow. The dark lady leaned in to confide.
“My best friend in the whole world’s dad is dying of pneumonia...pneumonia... do you believe it? No one dies of pneumonia anymore. She’s devastated...just really devastated”, she whispered.
I sipped at my coffee, wishing I didn’t have so much left.
“She already lost her mother last year from cancer and now this. Can’t believe it...I just can’t believe it. She can’t believe it.” The lady in shorts never said a word. She never reached out her hand.
The pain and futility and helplessness flowed over to me. I did not like spying or detective work. I was invading something private. I couldn’t stop listening.
“He was just emaciated when they found him...long beard...and his fingernails! Oh, and his toenails were really, really long, too. All bones...he was all bones. Hardly any food in the house. They think he wasn’t eating, but they weren’t sure for how long.”
The lady in shorts leaned back in her chair and pulled her chin into her neck.
I finished my Moxi Mocha with whipped cream. I finished it too fast. My burning throat and the glaring sun and the really long fingernails made my eyes well up. Hearing the fear and pain in her voice was like a vibrational arrow stabbing me. My heart spread open towards her. The dark lady sighed. The lady in shorts remained speechless.
If I knew the dark lady I would give her a voice of comfort. I would touch her hand. If I knew her best friend I would let her spill out her anger and sorrow. If I knew her father I would sit by his bed and hold his hand. I would let him know it was okay to miss his wife. But I wasn’t supposed to be listening. I wasn’t supposed to know these things.
If I stayed I was going to lose my tears. I had to leave. I struggled to shut off my ears. As I walked slowly up to the front counter with my empty cup, my mother’s voice chastised me. “See? Warned you to mind your own business”. Funny how my mind’s ear was not as easily shut off.
“Was it as good as last time?” the waitress called to me. I nearly dropped my mug.
“Yes, it sure was. Thank you.”
“Good. I try to make them really good...the same, you know?”, she grinned.
“Every bit as good as last time, for sure. You have a great afternoon.”
“You too”, she called as she turned back to her friend and their laughter.
As I turned to leave I noticed that under the table, beneath the perfect, perfect stacks of yellow index cards, were a pair of pink and white tennis shoes.
I guess a person should trust her first instincts.

Wednesday-8:30am

Leah had to stay home yesterday because they finally said they could come and re-seal their deck. She did run over before dinner and get the poinsettia cards re-printed. We now have flat cards--tada! Today she is busy with job applying stuff.
Last night Karma was watching this bug hop up and down across the rug. I didn't notice, but I think she caught it on the porch? Not sure what it was, but it almost looked like a tiny moth.



The wounded bug became a cat treat in the end. :(
Circle of life--right here in my living room.

After setting the alarm and not sleeping much for a couple days, last night I was in bed by 9:30pm! It worked this time! On early days today--nice!
Nippy morning. Still supposed to only be in the 70's for a high--but then they're expecting it to get back to low 80's for a few days, I guess. It's been in the 50's at night. Wonderful sleeping weather. :)
The kids are back in school and the fall shows will be on soon. Blink and it will be Thanksgiving! I am totally amazed that it is already September. The months have flown by.
And today will fly by, too, so I'd better put it to good use, right? :):)

Tuesday, September 01, 2009

Tuesday-10:30am

I finished up my small projects on the craft table--well, except for cutting the new business paper in half. These handmade paper bookcards got jazzed up for the Etsy shop.
Was experimenting with different size border frames. Anyways, they were plain and I wanted to pretty them up a bit. Not that I won't be making plain ones to sell, too, but these were the only ones I had left and I remembered how I had done this one other time. Plus I wanted to experiment with a new tube of paper glue, too--hehe! Not always easy to find glues that will stick well to the fibrous handmade paper. Worked well. :)
Turned out I wasn't up to leaving the house yesterday (darn annoying IBS). So the plan for today is that, after Leah goes job applying this morning, we'll go this afternoon to Office Max and Petco.
Sunny morning. It's been cooler at night. September already--but it feels like October.
Maybe I'll go start cutting paper...:) :)