Thursday, February 22, 2007


Had a really hard time falling asleep last night for the first time since I made the decision to be on days. Was in bed before midnight (my own cut off time), but couldn't get comfortable. Got up and took a pain pill and was finally dozing off when the party started at 1:30am. Loud, pounding music--and the floor shook sometimes? I finally decided to just get up. Lost myself in a FarScape episode so I could ignore the music. It went on an hour and a half or so--not positive, because I didn't pay close attention to when it stopped--but was wide awake when it finally did. Went and read online posts for a while and got to bed about 5am. I set the alarm for 10am so I would go back into my night schedule. I am up--but kind of half here--ha!

I had gotten an email from a lady writer on Eons a couple days ago--and that got me to go back and check them out. This was the new site for people over 50. It is a little easier to navigate, I guess, and they have added some things. But, what I thought was interesting--they have a new group for The Secret, now, too!! It has really been spreading around since being on Oprah--naturally--hehe! Since I am looking for like-minded folks online--I hooked up into the Eons group, too, for The Secret.

On the whole--since I made the decision to be on days back on the 4th--I have been on days. The latest I had been to bed (before last night, of course) was 12:15am and only one time. The latest I have slept has been 10am. That is really good for me!!! Last night was just a little glitch and I should be good and tired by tonight--even if I have a short nap during the afternoon--hehe!

Something else--all this positive thinking must be working--little by little. :) I noticed that I am able to sit at the computer longer total time in a day than I had been before--can go back off and on more times--without paying dearly for it the next day and being put out of commission! tada!!! Having a couple more hours in a day--priceless!! :)

Last time I watched The Secret I picked up on how you need to be in a healthy emotional state to be healthy physically. You must de-stress to heal. And nothing can happen without gratitude for what you already have. I realized that just burying emotional pain doesn't release it. I have thought I could just bury the pain and ignore it and carry on, you know? And, when I think about this from a new perspective, I have just ended up carrying around all that pain until it has manifested and become an actual constant physical pain I carry around with me 24/7. (fibro, etc)

So--now I am working on figuring out how to release that old emotional pain/fears. While I was reading posts last night I came across several people discussing "tapping" as a way to release.....something?? I need to go back and read on the website. Several people talked about how it helped them to release emotional stuff or helped them to lose weight or to change old ways of thinking..?? I haven't investigated it or read about it yet--or found out if it costs money--but here is the website. I saw there's a little movie to watch about how to do this, apparently, but I was too tired and needed to get to bed. Who knows? This might end up being the good thing that came out of a night of loud music--hehe! ??? If I could tap away the pain and fear and bad habits--tap, tap, taping I will go!! chuckle!! :)

I didn't go over to Dagan and Leah's last night. Next week...

I did watch The Prestige:

At the dawn of the 20th century, rival magicians Robert Angier (Hugh Jackman) and Alfred Borden (Christian Bale) are desperate to reveal each other's secrets. Obsessed by the escalating competition, the two illusionists begin to perform increasingly risky tricks -- which soon turn deadly. Michael Caine, Scarlett Johansson and David Bowie also star in this taut psychological thriller from director Christopher Nolan.

It was pretty good! The secrets of how they did their tricks was slowly revealed. Loved the feel of the movie--lighting and costumes. Had to look twice to recognize David Bowie! Such a conservative role for him!

Oh--and for those of you who were wondering--Leah hasn't heard anything about India yet. The company hasn't even completed the sale yet! Very slow process, I guess. Much slower than they ever expected in Leah's office, that's for sure--hehe! She and the other two ladies may still be going--time will tell. ???

I had jotted this down from when Oprah had her second show on The Secret:

We need to be balanced: financially, relationally, spiritually, physically, and intellectually.

Okie Dokie!! I am working on it!! :) :)

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